Jeremiah 29:11 ESV “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”

I haven’t been writing much, obviously. Things have been difficult, and a lot of depression and anxiety have set in. In my last post, I mentioned that I was looking for a new job. I was waiting to hear back. Well, after not hearing back from them for weeks I finally heard back and the answer was a no. I was crushed, yet knew something else would come along eventually. I’ve attended many interviews. I have also sent out multiple resumes. Yet, I haven’t managed to find a job.

This week has been extremely hard. Before this week God had been continually telling me to trust Him and His timing is perfect. I checked my account Wednesday morning. I was freaking out because finances have been very tough the past few months. It was getting worse. Finances were not looking good on Wednesday. Additionally, as of Wednesday, I am completely out of a job.

God was telling me “Trust me” yet I was saying “Lord, look at my bank account! How am I going to make my bills?!” I’ve been doing Door Dash. It isn’t the best of things right now. Yet I’m at least glad I have that to make some money. I do have another interview this week and I’m hoping they end up hiring me. The place is fantastic and everyone there is so welcoming, which is something I truly admire.

You can say that this is a trust period. God is continually telling me that His timing is perfect and everything happens in His perfect timing, not mine. Like the verse says at the beginning “For I know the plans I have for you.” He has the plans and is in control of my life. I am not in control, as much as I would like to be.

I heard a story that someone was telling about how God weeps with us and for us. Wednesday was a day where I was broken. I felt crushed knowing I was no longer wanted at my former job. I held it together and had moments of crying. The peace that comes with knowing God wept with me brings comfort. He knows how hard this is for me.

Yet, I keep moving ahead knowing He’s not going to leave me in the pit forever. His timing is perfect and everything will work out the way He’s already planned it. He knows what’s best for me. He decided that my former job was no longer a good place for me. He has something else in store that will be so much better. Now I just have to rest in Him, knowing that He has everything in control.